Ok, its the holidays, and I have been missing something important... such as a holiday-themed post. So, being Christmas Eve, it is only appropriate that this post has a holiday theme to it. I have actually been planning on posting about the holidays for a while now, but I have so far been unable to put those feelings about the holidays and Christmas into words. Anyways, hopefully my words now will be able to fully convey some of the feelings of the holidays.
Anyways, as the title suggests, I'm alone yet again for the holidays. Truthfully, I'm not entirely alone. I am incredibly thankful for my friends and family, who are there for me as always. But with that said, there is still a piece missing.
It has never been more difficult to be alone on the holidays. If anyone has ever listened to Christmas music, you probably know part of the story. It seems like all Christmas music mentions being in a relationship at some point. And that isn't even half of it. One can't go anywhere without seeing couples engaging in holiday activities and enjoying their "togetherness." I can't help but feel like the holidays, Christmas and New Years especially, have become couples holidays.
For all of you lonely hearts out there this Christmas, I feel your pain. I've been through it plenty of times. I usually spend much of the month leading up to Christmas and New Years bracing myself for yet another holiday season alone. It really does hurt to see all of those couples out there enjoying the holidays together. It hurts even more to not have someone special to buy presents for, or someone to cuddle with to keep warm. It is the small things like these that are often taken for granted by people who are constantly in a relationship, but at the same time, they are the things that many singles wish they could have. But then, it definitely isn't all about those. It is more about being able to share the holiday spirit with someone who loves you, whom you love in return.
That said, I felt something different this year. It was an odd sense of hope. It was brought upon by an interesting series of events, and a few things that I might be mistaken about. Nonetheless, it gives me a tiny bit of hope where I need it most. Perhaps I might find what I'm looking for after all.
Perhaps the magic of the holidays will be the spark that makes my dream come true?
Despite the fact that I have looked down upon the holidays when it comes to relationships, it might not take much to change my opinion. But who knows? My future, and the future of anyone who joins me in loneliness this holiday, has the potential to be quite bright.
And so, as I continue on to New Years, I will hold this new light closely. Maybe... just maybe... it might prove to be what I am looking for.
