I've been able to begin to establish my workout routine a bit. In all honesty, I'm more out of shape than I imagined. Hopefully I'm able to regain my athleticism soon. I've always considered it a valuable part of who I am. It has definitely been ravaged by this long and tedious winter.
As for the whole dating scene, I haven't really gotten much from Eharmony yet. I'm still a tad skeptical. I've been focused on improving my profile by bits and pieces at a time. I've finally managed to answer most of the relevant questions that they give for you to answer as part of your profile. I've also made several additions to the various main page aspects, such as favorite movies and music. I also think that I still need to work on some of the main questions that they display to the people who view your profile. Making a good first impression is important, I think.
I also need more pictures. I was on my profile the other day, and I have only one good picture of myself on there. That isn't nearly enough for what I'm hoping to do. I need pictures that illustrate my life as it is. It is more of an art form, I guess. Anyways, I tried looking on Facebook. It was then that I realized how few good pictures of myself I actually have. Don't get me wrong, I have a few on Facebook. However, in my own opinion, they are all terrible. And no, I'm not being self-conscious. They all look like crap. It seems like whenever a camera is around, I always find a way to look my absolute worst. It is a curse or something.
So, with that, I made myself a goal for this summer (yes, another one). That is, I am going to find a way to take more pictures of my life in general. I need a better way to put who I am into image form. It is an odd goal to be sure, but one that I think I can live with.
Also, I've been plagued by thoughts and dreams of the first girl I ever loved. Apparently she is back in town for the summer. It has had a noticeable effect on me for sure. No, I haven't seen her yet, but it has still given me flashbacks. I'm not really sure what any of it means. I'm not sure if I should try to seek her out or avoid her. Maybe it won't even matter.
It isn't just her I've found my mind turning to lately. There is another girl that I once had feelings for that I find my thoughts turn to more and more often. I still don't know why... Why is my heart trying to drag me back into the past? Is there something I missed there?
Either way, I plan to press forward with my attempts to find that one person who might be able to complete my heart.
I can't help but feel as though I am a person with half a heart. The other half is missing, and whether or not I'll be able to find it... I can't say for sure.
