Yeah, I know... it isn't my favorite title for a blog post. But you know, it accurately describes my feelings at the moment. Just when I thought I would be getting back to my old self... it ends up coming back to bite me. And once again, I can't get the thought of unfairness out of my mind.
I suppose it began with reading all those weird "likes" on Facebook this morning. Kinda and odd habit of mine, I like to page through some of the common "likes" to see if any match my thoughts/feelings. Anyways, one in particular caught my attention. It was entitled: "Not all guys want sex, because some of us want a relationship. Not all guys like Black Ops, because loving you is more fun. Not all men will hurt you, because some men are decent people. Not all men will abuse you, because some men like to see you smile. However, all those guys are gay." I remember my excitement as I read the first lines of that title. I was thinking: "YES! Somebody finally gets it!" But then I read that last sentence...
Nothing like a mood breaker to start your morning eh?
I suppose the truth is still out of reach. The problem I have here is... *I* would be like that in a relationship. I don't want sex, I'm interested in a relationship. I don't even play Black Ops, so loving someone would definitely be more fun. I wouldn't ever hurt anyone in a relationship, because, believe it or not, I'm a pretty decent person. And I would never abuse anyone, because I would enjoy the smile of the one I loved. BUT I'M NOT GAY! In fact, I'm the least gay person many people will ever meet.
That is why that hurts me so much to see something like that. Because people actually believe it. Only a little over six thousand people. But still... that's a lot of people to believe in a lie as ridiculous as that. Probably more coming. I wish the truth was tangible enough to throw in the faces of all those people who clicked the like button on that post.
Of course, I can't end on that. I'm going to do my best to throw in in their faces whether they know it or not.
So, to the girl who wrote that ridiculous "like:"
You ever wonder WHY those guys are gay? That's right. Because you took until NOW to notice them. They wanted someone to love, but you were too busy chasing all the jerks. Now that you DO notice them, its too late to turn back. So, whatever hopelessness you're feeling right now is your own fault, because you had your chance.
That's pretty good... in fact, I might actually make this into a "like" on Facebook just to see how many likes it gets. Now, remember one thing: I have never been and never will be gay. To me, it is one of the most repulsive things on the planet. But when I look at it from the viewpoint of that previous paragraph, I begin to feel sorry for those who might actually relate to that. Sorry, because I know the feeling.
Unfortunately, that particular post began a chain of thought that happened to ruin a good portion of my day, because I can't get the unfairness of it all out of my head. Here I am, the type of guy that most girls SAY they are looking for... And yet I'm more alone than ever before. But hey, I know the truth now. They're all the same.
